Lady Gaga has bravely opened up about being sexually assaulted by an unidentified music producer as a teenager to for their October issue.
The singer-turned-actress has admitted that she feels “miserable” every single day since the incident took place when she was just 19-years-old.
Describing the effects the assault has had on her everyday life ever since, the 32-year-old said, “No one else knew. It was almost like I tried to erase it from my brain. And when it finally came out, it was like a big, ugly monster. And you have to face the monster to heal.”
Lady Gaga, who takes the lead in A Star Is Born, out in October continued to say, “For me, with my mental health issues, half of the battle in the beginning was, I felt like I was lying to the world because I was feeling so much pain, but nobody knew.” We salute you, Gaga!
The singer likens the daily trauma to being on a rollercoaster, “You know that feeling when you’re on a roller coaster and you’re just about to go down the really steep slope? That fear and the drop in your stomach? My diaphragm seizes up. Then I have a hard time breathing, and my whole body goes into a spasm.” Lady Gaga goes on to discuss more details around the PTSD she battles every day.
The actress, who is tipped for Oscar glory for her role in Bradley Cooper’s debut movie as a director, also divulged her frustration over people questioning her long-suffering illness with fibromyalgia. The paralysing condition has led to her scaling back tours and cancelling shows altogether. Gaga believes the condition has been aggravated by the continuing trauma she faces every day after her sexual assault.